Jesus proved he loves me

Whats a doll have to do with Jesus???

You’re probably thinking what the heck does this creepy doll have to do with Jesus? This is one of the most favorite things that’s happened to me, and The Lord has orchestrated much grandeur things in my life, but it’s because of how much of an intimate story this is.

If you’re under the assumption that you’re speaking to the clouds when you pray and that our God doesn’t know each of our hearts, man oh man do you have a new world opening up to you.

a little backstory

I’ll get on with the story. This took place August 13, 2025. As I’m typing this I’m realizing I actually think that was my grandparents anniversary (the ones who gifted me the doll). Wow okay I’ll have to double check that and report back

A little backstory, a few months prior to this doll situation, I had something secured/scheduled that I was going to be a part of. I wasn’t exactly sure that it was okay to be a part of as a Christian but I agreed to it. I don’t feel the need to tell you exactly what it was, just know that it’s controversial and I still don’t know what the right thing to do would have been.

choosing the thing that pleases others or pleases god?

Fast forward to august and the thing was coming up on my calendar. I started feeling a lot of doubt and conviction almost like God was telling me to not do it. Well I was kind of locked in, and felt a lot of pressure to still do it. I was feeling very conflicted with making humans happy and having to find a reason to get out of this thing and disappointing God.

I chose to still go through with it and afterwards I was a mess. I felt like I disobeyed direct orders and truly thought I was going to hell and that Jesus didn’t love me anymore. At this point in my faith it was getting very serious and it was very equivalent to breaking someone’s heart sort of feeling and you’re really sorry but you feel like there’s nothing you can do it say to make then forgive you or make it right. I was a mess.

the next morning

The next morning my grandma Jo (not to be confused with my grandma who the doll is from=grandma Becky) brought over this doll from grandma Becky that she found in her old house that my brother now lives in. (Grandma Becky passed away quite a few years ago and my grandpa did too so my brother moved into the house they lived in)

She randomly came across this doll while looking through some other things and noticed on the box it said “Charlee 1st birthday”

i never got it for my 1st birthday as intended

I never got this doll, but I do know that I needed it more now at 27, than I would have at 1 years old. I firmly believe God saved this away for me for this exact moment in my life.

Normally I’m kinda creeped out by dolls, but when I opened it up and saw it had hair like me and was likely those kind of dolls where it was supposed to look like the person (along the lines of an American doll) I felt a sense of peace about it. Upon further inspection of the doll, the little tag on its hand says “Jesus loves me”.

I immediately started sobbing because like I said, I really thought I wouldn’t be forgiven because I did something KNOWING God told me not to.

the lord even took it a step further than he needed to

But then if that wasn’t enough! Later that SAME DAY I get a message on TikTok from this random person I didn’t even know existed. Their profile picture was of them with a DOLL, and they sent me a video that said “God wants you to know that you haven’t gone too far. I know you feel guilty, like your life has gone into shambles and you’re not worthy for God, and that you don’t think there’s a chance you can be with Him in heaven. He wanted me to let you know that’s not true, that there’s not any sin you can commit that He won’t have mercy on. If you bring those to Him He will forgive you. Your life will change and you will fall in love with Him. And it’s not just that He forgives your sins, He forgets them. He’ll read your heart, and He’ll forgive you and won’t remember.

whenever I’m upseti go back to this moment.

This is one of my favorite experiences with Jesus, and this is simply just one thing of many He’s shown me. We talk a lot and He helps me through a lot of things. Put your trust in Him, start praying to Him as if He’s sitting right beside you (not way up in the clouds!). He can hear you and is listening I promise. We are His children and He wants to see us succeed just as a good earthly father would.

I cannot wait to share more of my experiences with Jesus! You can subscribe to be notified whenever I post, for free! I pray that whoever needs to see this it touches their heart.